Everything I acknowledge with my eyes, my taste buds, my smell, and my hearing. Everything around me. All the time. Without cigarettes and anxiety meds, my brain has been overloaded with constant effort to balance what I witness. How to do I learn from what I’m looking at? What can I learn from what I’m hearing? I feel like a sponge with brain cells taking in as much information as they possibly can. 50 scenarios, 10 opinions, 100 words…..in five seconds. This has happened before but I was not calm. I had not learned how to be calm yet. I still haven’t completely learned how to be calm at all times for the air is constantly testing me. I’m practicing to be the calm in the midst of chaos.
The day continues in my happiness, when I do not fight with what is here and now.
Perspective is opinion based on observations of both assumptions and experience. Results can provide both more questions or some answers. Never will all things be clear enough to give only answers. It is us whom make our own realities. Delusional? Not necessarily. The skies above us and dirt below, are all proof of creation. A creator. Time. The evidence of time.
It’s the things that do not come easy, that we realize the value. It’s the incomplete sentences that cause us to ask again. Comparing. Prioritizing. Life is full of preparation for the unknown reality and hope for ideal results.
Real love reminds us of what matters the most to our subconscious self as well. The eyes and hands can speak a million words without a sound. Connecting. Solving. Life is complex even though the word itself is simple.
We make our own realities. We see what we want to see and make up delusional mindsets if we chose.
Adapting and accepting change is the only way we can survive happily.
I wake and sleep all morning with an appointment in mind that symbolizes a new page in my life. The rest of my life begins today and the past must only remind me of what I’ve learned and enjoyed.
My mind is scattered yet calm. Today is a big day.
It’s the questions in life that lead us to the truth. When in doubt, figure it out. It’s the risks that teach us the things we don’t know.